“Just Smile”

In my life, I have been told many times that I should smile. Most of the time by strangers who don’t know me at all and have no idea what I have been through or what I’m currently going through. I will never forget one man in particular, several years ago. I was at work…

Keep Graceful Dancing

These beautiful words on my left shoulder are from one of my favorite Blue October songs, “Graceful Dancing.” To me, it signifies overcoming every obstacle, rising above when depression tries to drag me down and living each day as if it might be my last. I got this tattoo (my first) in 2014, one year…

Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day is a hard day for a lot of people, including me. Internet and TV are swarmed with advertising what to get for your mother, where to take her, what to do for her. I know it’s not meant to alienate those who have lost their mothers, but it can. This is a well…

This Is Why

Several people have asked me why I chose to write a novel about depression and suicide, especially involving a main character who is gay. The answer is fairly simple: I wrote about it because it’s real. Millions of people (including me) suffer from depression every single day. It’s almost an impossible thing to explain to…